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[Thursday // November 12th] [ music | RAH RAH RAH RAMAA, GAGA OH LALA!!want your bad romance!! ] I love to draw, but the thing is, I can go months without sitting down and actually drawing something worthwhile. But tonight I did, and it feels great, except there are now pencil shavings in my mixed drink, my juicy juice and svedka isn't happy about this. i'm also really stoked on target archery, i love it even though lack of armguard gave me that disgusting terrible best bruise of my life (literally everyone who sees it gasps, then proceeds to ask if i was bitten by a vampire.) i think i'll go have a cigarette and then MAYBE get started on some of this work, although I might decide to try and wakeup at 930 so i can do it before class. but everytime i try that i sleep late. WELL THEN. WE'LL JUST HAVE TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS! 0 why so serious?

[Saturday // November 7th] Lady Gaga is too much. 'Bad Romance' is epically weird and I love it, I can't stop listening. I really need to get tickets to see her in January in the city... one of her other new songs leaked today. don't know how i feel about it. i'll keep it on repeat for a while. it's 7:10 on a saturday night and i need to start getting dressed lolz 0 why so serious?

[Wednesday // November 4th] i cook way too many grilled cheeses it's all i really eat 2 why so serious?

[Tuesday // October 6th] is it weird that i'm having a mid life crisis at age 19 2 why so serious?

[Sunday // September 20th] i'm obsessed with lady gaga i worship that woman 7 why so serious?

[Tuesday // August 18th] I just got off the phone with my father. Yeah, the father who I haven't heard from or seen since I was about four years old. He's been sober since 1997. He's living in a tiny house in Copaigue, he's semi-retired, he's a plumber, he told me he loves movies and has pictures of horses all over his house. I told him I was the same way with wolves. He then told me he's getting a siberian husky puppy, and he's going to let me name it. This is just really strange and overwhelming. I kind of want to cry, but I don't think I will. It's just so insane having this man be in my life now. I have a 35 year old brother, two twenty something year old sisters (both with 3 boys) and god knows how many other relatives. It's not that I didn't want to see him, or that he didn't want to see me. My mom didn't want him anywhere near me. And I probably turned out better, in the long run, being raised the way I was. But it's still very strange to think of all the things he missed out on in my life. But it's okay now... I'm meeting him for lunch on Monday. I have so much to do before I go back to school, and this is just another thing I have to worry about. Not that I'm worried too much, but..I mean..whatever. We talked about how when I was little and Tales from the Crypt would come on I'd always run behind the couch and hide, no matter what. And how he took me to the movie theater for the first time ever to see the Lion King. And how we watched the Jungle Book all day everyday and I knew every line. It's just really weird and surreal. 4 why so serious?

[Sunday // August 9th] mmm i love wine and friends and warm weather, swimming in watering holes.. and hiking up mountains and sleeping under the stars and picking fresh food and cooking it and making delish dinners and smoking good weeeed and listening to good music and laughing i loved woodstock! and now i'm in my bed on this yucky day , it's so hot and humid i think i'm gona start watching the tudors it's so damn HOT i cant wait to go back to purchase 0 why so serious?

[Sunday // August 2nd] i'm an idiot jerk and i hate myself 1 why so serious?

[Thursday // July 9th] quick, i got a job at lids, got really lucky. easy as pie, fun, laid back, bruno comes out friday ziiing, going to red carpet harry potter premiere tomorrow don't know if it'll work out amazingly but we'll see. apparently my dad (who i haven't seen or talked to or heard from in SEVENTEEN YEARS) found my myspace, showed it to some kid who contacted me, etc, weird stuff, i feel weird about it. i feel a little less useless now that i have a job. went out on the boat today, it was beautiful . i love the sun, i wish i wasn't so lazy 2 why so serious?

[Wednesday // July 1st] The fact that the new Transformers has made such a disgustingly huge amount of money is making me nervous. What I'm worried about is this effortless kind of film, that's making all this money (and by effortless I mean no effort was put in to make this a solid film, i.e a film that makes it's own rules and follows them) will only open the door to MORE of this kind of stuff. More explosions and characters who lack substance, more films with incoherent plots that are overshadowed by "hot" lead actresses and an epic movie score. Americans, or maybe just people in general, are essentially lemmings...we don't want to fall behind the pack, but we don't want to be told we want to be part of the pack. That's what we struggle with. We BEG and love and long to be told what to do, buut don't tell us that's what we want. All I want is for some Hollywood producers to try a little harder. I really don't think it's asking for too much. Bad movies might make a lot of money, but so do great ones. And I hate the argument, "oh, well it's a movie about robots fighting, based on toys why does it need a plot? it's just mindless entertainment.." WELL, If I can have a movie about a guy who puts on a bat suit to fight crime make sense, then Transformers should too. (tdk) If I can have a movie about a billionaire weapons industrialist who flies around in metal armor and shoots laser beams from his palms make sense, then Transformers should too. (iron man) And if I can have a movie about the last robot on earth falling in love with a different robot and getting hurled along through space make sense, then Transformers should too. (walle) HELL, ALL OF THESE MOVIES MADE MONEY and did NOT compromise the integrity of the film, unlike michael bay's movie. and what really saddens me is that so many people loved this movie. honestly, it's really fucking sad. /rant over.. 1 why so serious?

[Tuesday // June 9th] i love lady gaga i don't know how this happened, considering i dislike all female pop vocal artists but she is SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT! she is fabulous and fashion forward without being conventionally "hot" whateva, she's awesome and is my new obsession, it's raining really hard and lightning and thundering ow owwwwww i never go to sleep until 5 am lately my sleep pattern at home is so messed up D: 1 why so serious?

[Thursday // June 4th] i'm a bitch i'm a lover i'm a stoner i'm a bad person i'm a geek i'm in love 0 why so serious?

I'm amused. [Tuesday // May 26th] I wonder why some girls refuse to grow up. I'm really just curious. In other news, I still am Star Trek obsessed, I love Phil, and slurpees, and being drunk. I also love driving in my car, and I'm really stoked to see Terminator today because I have so much love for Senor Bale. 0 why so serious?

[Friday // May 22nd] Things I want: -new gladiator sandals -that job at the airport in Farmingdale, even if they do have drug tests, because recently I've discovered I'm addicted to celebrities. Not so much the people, but just celebrity news. I don't know what to say about it or how to defend myself. I just don't. -to see the new Terminator. STAT. -this headache to go away. -to get drunk on cheap wine. I hate being home and having to drive everywhere. I love driving in the summer, but it's getting annoying, yanno? -to see Phil. -to be less lazy and finish unpacking my shit from school! God. -people to stop bashing Obama/liberals via facebook statuses, because normally they sound really stupid and I don't think ANY of them know what they are even talking about. In fact, my generation's use of the internet and word of mouth in regards to politics is really dissillusioning me with the whole thing. I don't even want to talk about politics anymore, with barely anyone. God dammit. -to sleep all day, but I know this won't happen. -A Digital SLR camera, but I don't have the moniez. So I'm looking to get one that's a step down or very similar, or like an alternative to an SLR. -a puppy, and a kitty. -to have like, eight hundred thousand neopoints. Please. -Zachary Quinto and Chris Pine. ZING! Star Trek hotties taking over my life as of lately. 0 why so serious?

live long and prosper [Wednesday // May 13th] [ music | neil young ] yeah, cool, i love my bed and everything, it's nice and big. but i feel so idle at home, i don't know what the hell to do with myself. i didn't finish unpacking yet, but it's because i have NO ROOM IN MY ROOM FOR ANYTHING. i have to go to the laundrymat to wash my clothes because theres so many of them. i have TOO MANY CLOTHES. anyway, i guess i'll go jobhunting. if tonight ends up like last night i guess i'll get drunk by myself. no i won't, that's stupid. i just feel weird being home. p.s, star trek ruled. there are so many good movies coming out this summer i'm stoked! 0 why so serious?

[Monday // April 20th] i'm sitting here with a towel on my head making up a mock interview about modernization of islam but the truth is i don't want to go back to reality! Culture Shock was so much better than I expected. A two day music festival with drinking and carnival rides and sunshine was absolutely perfect. I'm finding that I really appreciate things when an event like this takes place- the hot sun on my back, the music even if it's only mediocre, the blankets and girls in nice dresses. Surrounded by my friends all day-when someone would stop at our blanket it was just an accumulation of more and more people, coming and going all day. The grass under my feet, the dirt, just being barefoot in general is a beautiful thing. Climbing trees and being tipsy while eating a snocone , waiting for dusk (two beautiful sunsets, friday and saturday) so that the night can begin- and with it comes more drinking, a new outfit, dancing, lights, loud music, hot messes, roaming, sweating, every little thing I just..drank it all in. It's like it was a totally different world. Back to reality. I can still enjoy being barefoot though. I mean, I have so many bruises and my body aches all over but I'm lovin' it. 2 why so serious?

[Friday // April 3rd] i tell it like it is and if i hurt people's feelings and come off as a bitch, hey, whatever. 1 why so serious?

happy birthday to.. [Thursday // March 26th] my favorite lady in the world turns 24 today! :) I turn 19 really soon, like, two weeks. eesh. also, i didn't go to journalism at all this week- i feel like such a bum. i hate eight thirty classes. 3 why so serious?

[Thursday // March 19th] I love my big bed, driving my car, and my access to all these nice foods (and slurpees!) all the time...but...I just want to be back at Purchase. That's all. 0 why so serious?

[Saturday // March 14th] and to think, i was seriously excited about coming back here?????? i fucking hate my stepdad. i had to come home early last night because i was dreading his wrath. wana know why? because he doesn't like my pet mice. fuck him. i can't stand him. he keeps giving me reasons to dislike him. i'm really upset. and my mom is really sick this week, she has to give herself these infusions for the MS, so that means I get to hangout with my brother all the time. awesome . not. and i fucking forgot my ipod converter thing at school. so i cant listen to music in my car without out. pissed. my curfew is 1 am here. pissed. i just love being at school SO SO SO much more. i fucking hate this shit. 3 why so serious?

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